The moment I walk in, testing is all I can think about

This is for you—the person standing in the entryway right after work, replaying whether the contraception worked and whether you need a test.

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The moment I walk in, testing is all I can think about — Before I can even put down my bag, I remember what happened. I start wondering all at once whether the contraception worked and whether I should get tested.
Saying “I’m okay” never seems like enough — Not knowing who to ask, I open and close screens on my own. I hold back because I’m afraid I’ll look like I’m needlessly suspicious of my partner.
Even after putting down the bag, I can’t bring myself to check — Around seven in the evening, I place the pharmacy bag on the shoe cabinet and look over the receipt again. I start writing down what to ask, then turn off the screen.
Anxiety creates several questions at once — When you put questions about contraception and testing into one sentence, your mind rushes to decide whether everything is okay or not. First, separate what happened from what you want to check.
Write down just one line of facts — Today, write what happened in one line, and leave just one line for what you want to check. You don’t have to finish finding the answer—just carry the question with you.
Checking isn’t the same as feeding your fear — It's okay if you still don't feel reassured. Separating facts from questions is where understanding contraception and testing begins.