I write a sexual health question in my new year planner, then erase it

At year’s end, I start looking at the calendar again, as if I have to finish even the sexual health questions I put off before the year ends.

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I try to finish even my questions this year — At year’s end, I write the sexual health questions I put off in my new year planner, then soon erase them. The closer the date gets, the more I search.
Everything I don’t know grows at once — When I read one article, other possibilities follow. Before I consider what applies to me, I try to reach a conclusion first.
Information can’t replace a question — Sexual health information can expand what you don’t know, but it can’t confirm what’s happening in your situation. So what you saw and what you’re guessing start to blur together.
Separate what you saw from what you’re wondering — Tonight, try writing just one line for “what I saw” and one for “what I’m wondering.” Instead of deciding on an answer, you’re checking the shape of the question.
It’s okay if things don’t become clear right away — Even after you make a note, the answer may not become clear right away. Still, you can separate what you saw while searching from what actually happened to you.
My question moves at my own pace — When a sexual health question starts to feel as heavy as a calendar deadline, Haeon first looks at the facts and the uncertainties separately. What is the first thing you want to write down right now?