A Night of Fixing Myself in Front of the Mirror

This is a story for anyone who moves close to the mirror after washing up, looking for flaws first.

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Even after washing up, I fix myself in front of the mirror — Even after washing my face, I move close to the mirror and look for flaws first. Once again, trying to care for myself turns into inspecting myself.
I’m clean, but I still feel the same — Even after touching your skin and fixing your hair, you see more things to fix than feel that you’re okay. You’re not the only one who has nights like this.
I moved closer as soon as I put down the towel — After washing my face, I put down the towel and took one step toward the mirror. The hand studying my face stayed up for a long time.
When care turns into inspection, the body tenses first — When self-care becomes something you do to look okay, your body tenses as if you’re the one being inspected instead of resting. The more closely you look, the farther ease slips away.
Before the mirror, notice how washing up feels — Today, before putting down the towel and looking in the mirror, notice one feeling left in your body. Just whether your eyes feel less dry, or your face feels a little cooler.
Even when you see something to fix, the care you gave yourself remains — Even if you see a flaw when you look in the mirror again, you don’t have to pretend you’re okay. The fact that you washed and cared for your body today remains, apart from any judgment.