I opened the schedule to prepare for old age, but there’s nothing I want to take

This is a story for anyone who feels lost about what to add to the days ahead, even after opening a community center schedule.

Scenes

Even with the schedule open, there’s nothing I want to take — I opened the community center schedule to prepare for old age, but the empty spaces catch my eye before any class worth signing up for.
Before what to do, I’m losing sight of what I used to like — I try to choose something so I won’t look like someone who failed to prepare, but I can’t readily remember whether there was anything I’d wanted for a long time.
I pulled my hand back from the sign-up button — At nine that night, I was about to sign up for a class when I turned off my phone and folded the schedule in half again.
Before filling the future, picture the day you want — When preparing for old age becomes a to-do list, the kind of day I want to live gets pushed aside. The blank spaces are less about what’s missing than about questions I haven’t asked yet.
Instead of one class, write down a day you’d dislike a little less — Tonight, don’t choose a class. Just write down one scene you’d like to have on an ordinary Tuesday. It’s okay if nothing comes to mind right away.
Even with many blank spaces, you’re not late to prepare — Sometimes you don’t know right away what you want. You can start with those blank spaces and slowly notice the shape of your days.