When I open my workbook, the whole exam comes to mind.
This is a story for anyone who sits down to study on a weekend afternoon, only to see the exam date before the first question.
Scenes
- When I open my workbook, the whole exam comes to mind. — It’s three o’clock on Saturday afternoon. Even after sitting at my desk, I think of the exam date before the first question. All I’m holding is my pencil.
- It’s not that I was avoiding studying. — I sit down to study, then rewrite my planner and organize my materials. I’ve started, but I still haven’t reached the questions.
- My hand stops beside the first question. — It’s three o’clock on Saturday afternoon. The pencil tip circles beside the first question. After reading one line and checking the calendar, I close the workbook again.
- The exam slips inside a single question. — When exam anxiety rises, one question grows until it feels like the whole exam. So the organizing keeps growing, while the time spent actually solving problems gets shorter.
- Write only what you know beside the first question. — Today, before solving the first question, write down just one line about what you know right now. If you get stuck, you’ll see where you stopped instead of judging your ability.
- Start again, even from where you stopped. — Your hand may stop again after writing one line. Even so, once you can see where you started and where you broke off, you can match the next page to your rhythm.
Stories by Saebyeok
- Saebyeok
- Monday morning, and I feel like I’ll have to explain my time off again.
- After celebrating with someone, I start to doubt whether I want to try again.
- On my birthday, I made my goals too big.
- Even when I go to the study room, I can't open my book.
- Before bed, I write down only how much I studied today.
- While I wait for the results, I’m already worried about who I’ll be compared with.
- After washing up, I stand before the mirror and see the choice I left behind again.
- On rainy days, I’d open just one page.