While I wait for the results, I’m already worried about who I’ll be compared with.
Even before the exam results are out, I picture someone asking who got what score.
Scenes
- The words that come before the score — As I wait for my results after the exam, I picture someone asking who got what score.
- A question no one’s asked yet — When a notification pops up in the group chat with my friends, I pause before opening it, afraid they’ll ask about my score.
- Anxiety gets ready to compare before the results are in — While you don’t know the results, anxiety can make you picture comparing your score with someone else’s. That’s why thoughts of the exam can linger while you wait.
- Write down the page you haven’t seen yet — Tonight, try writing, “I don’t know the results yet.” Even if thoughts of comparison come back, that one line is what you know for sure right now.
- Until the results come, you don’t know yet — Picturing a comparison doesn’t mean the results are already decided. There’s still a page that hasn’t been turned.
Stories by Saebyeok
- Saebyeok
- Monday morning, and I feel like I’ll have to explain my time off again.
- After celebrating with someone, I start to doubt whether I want to try again.
- On my birthday, I made my goals too big.
- Even when I go to the study room, I can't open my book.
- Before bed, I write down only how much I studied today.
- After washing up, I stand before the mirror and see the choice I left behind again.
- On rainy days, I’d open just one page.
- When I say I’m taking a break, the dinner table falls quiet.