When I’m alone at lunch, it feels like I’ll be responsible no matter which way I choose.
Sitting alone at lunch, I weigh today’s decision again. I look at the moment I try to find the right answer and take on all the responsibility that comes with…
Scenes
- I keep weighing it, spoon in hand — Eating lunch alone, I write down the two options again. It feels like the outcome is on me either way, so I just hold my spoon.
- Editing my note still brings no answer — I list the pros and cons in my phone, then erase them. I thought if I covered every possible outcome, I’d see the right answer.
- You can’t be responsible for every outcome — When I look at a decision, I separate the cost of each path from how reversible it is. Choosing and taking responsibility for every outcome aren’t the same thing.
- Write down what you can carry today — At lunch today, don’t write down every outcome of both paths. Just write one cost you can handle right now. It’s okay to stop if you get stuck.
- You can revisit it after you choose — Some choices can’t be summed up in one line. You can look more closely another time at which outcomes are yours to take responsibility for.
Stories by Haewol
- Haewol
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- Even after the funeral, I’m still unsure whether to leave the group or stay.
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- By the rainy window, I’m unsure whether we should manage our money together.
- Even while folding laundry, I weigh whether to go into business with someone or go it alone.
- When I’m alone in my room, I wonder if it’s okay to rest today.