I started this to take care of myself.

Every morning on her way to work, Jimin cancels the swim time she set aside for herself. She repeats the same thing in the evening, until she finally says something.

After canceling her swim reservation on the morning train, Jimin notices what lingers in her body. But that evening, she pushes her swim bag into a drawer and freezes again the next day when the reservation reminder appears.

When you keep postponing time for yourself

When caring for yourself keeps getting pushed back, you can notice what your body does when you pause before making a commitment.

When do you put off time for yourself first?

Jimin, the feeling that lingered long after you canceled the reservation stayed with me more than the hand that pressed the button. You don't have to figure out today why the time you set aside to care for yourself kept getting pushed back. When you stopped just before saying it, was there a place in your body that reacted first? If you're going through something similar, please tell me about that too, slowly.

Scenes

• 01 · The morning she pressed cancel The morning she pressed cancel — On the train to work, Jimin canceled her swim reservation for that evening. Her face, reflected in the closing doors, trembled for a moment. Jimin: I'll just rest today.
• 02 · What her body still felt What her body still felt — After canceling, Jimin placed her phone facedown on the table, but couldn't pull her hand away right away. Dalbit looked beside that hand. Dalbit: How did your body feel after you canceled?
• 03 · Into the drawer Into the drawer — That night, Jimin folded the swim bag hanging on the chair and pushed it into the drawer. The cancellation from that morning returned in the same form that evening. Jimin: I can probably go tomorrow.
• 04 · What remained at the end of her words What remained at the end of her words — The next day, Jimin looked at the swim reservation reminder that had appeared again but couldn't lower her phone. After her lips moved a few times, a short sentence came out. Jimin: I started this to take care of myself…