I opened the schedule to prepare for old age, but there’s nothing I want to take

Scenes

• Even with the schedule open, there’s nothing I want to take — I opened the community center schedule to prepare for old age, but the empty spaces catch my eye before any class worth signing up for.
• Before what to do, I’m losing sight of what I used to like — I try to choose something so I won’t look like someone who failed to prepare, but I can’t readily remember whether there was anything I’d wanted for a long time.
• I pulled my hand back from the sign-up button — At nine that night, I was about to sign up for a class when I turned off my phone and folded the schedule in half again.
• Before filling the future, picture the day you want — When preparing for old age becomes a to-do list, the kind of day I want to live gets pushed aside. The blank spaces are less about what’s missing than about questions I haven’t asked yet.
• Instead of one class, write down a day you’d dislike a little less — Tonight, don’t choose a class. Just write down one scene you’d like to have on an ordinary Tuesday. It’s okay if nothing comes to mind right away.
• Even with many blank spaces, you’re not late to prepare — Sometimes you don’t know right away what you want. You can start with those blank spaces and slowly notice the shape of your days.