When I sit by the bus window, I feel even more alone

Scenes

• There are so many people, but I can’t see anyone on my side — Even when the bus is crowded, sitting by the window can make you feel like there’s no one to share your story with.
• What you look for before saying you’re lonely — Before saying you’re lonely, you first think of the photos and stories you sent no one today. Sometimes that feels even colder.
• Counting the people outside the window — On the bus after work, you turn your phone on and off while watching pairs of people walking outside. Only the seat beside you seems to stay empty.
• Your heart counts the absent first — When you’re lonely, your heart looks first for who isn’t there, not who is. So the empty seat and unanswered screen grow larger than the scenery.
• Write down what you wanted to share — When you get home, write just one line in your notes: ‘What I wanted to share today was ___.’ It isn’t meant to find an answer.
• Loneliness isn’t eased by the number of people alone — You may still feel lonely after writing one line. Even so, what kind of connection you needed that day becomes a little clearer.